Depressed? Suicidal? Let's chat. Those feelings really don't have to last forever. And, you're not alone. It's not uncommon to feel this way. And even if you feel like you're all alone and have nothing and no one, there are people out there who care about you- even if they're people from your past that you forgot about long ago. And, you have *you.* Your life is worth fighting for, and you're not forever damned.
Suicide Hotlines... talk it out:
(514) 723 4000
+44 (0) 8457 90 90 90
902 500 002
+81 (0) 3 5286 9090
More countries hotlines:
A good site about suicide & hope:
Riding out dark thoughts (short-term):
1) Hotlines (National Suicide Prevention Hotline, 1-800-273-8255)
2) ER short-term, counselor/psych long-term
3) Ghetto version of riding out the darkness (not nearly as helpful as professional help): sitting in a public place that night, whether Starbucks or an ER lobby 4) Distract yourself that night: hobbies, movies, hanging out with friends... anything to ride out the darkness until the thoughts feel slightly less consuming and overwhelming.
If journaling has taught me anything, it's that the intensity of emotions don't last forever. The darkness and sadness might be overwhelming and suffocating right now, but the intensity of those emotions doesn't have to last forever.
Fighting depression (long-term):
1) Psychiatrist. I tried medicine for depression, and that started to help ease the dark thoughts a little. In very young/old people, anti-depressants can make suicidal thoughts more often. Choose a psychiatrist and medication carefully. It often takes multiple tries to find a medicine that helps you. I lucked out and the first one I took helped me. I ran out and stopped taking it, but it did help ease the dark thoughts a little... and also eventually made me a bit dizzy and hyper. A pill alone won't make you happy- you have to constantly work at improving your life and finding ways/things to make life enjoyable, internally and externally. Find ways to improve your life, get some healthy lifestyle habits, create things to look forward to (events, vacations, hobbies, time with friends, etc.)
2) Counselor. School and community counselors sometimes offer low-cost counseling. I tried counseling a few months and stumbled on a crappy counselor who didn't care. There's good counselors and bad, keep trying.
3) Self-help books. I'm a bit of a self-help book junkie.
4) Healthy lifestyle: sleeping normal and enough hours, getting outside, walking around, some sunlight, vitamins, food, etc.
5) Finding things to look forward to: go site-seeing in your city, go to events or festivals/fairs, find some hobbies (I tried hobby photography, stamp/coin/postcard collecting, movies, reading, etc.). Meet a few new friends. Friends help distract you from your own head for a few hours and help lighten the mood goofing around.
6) Make lists of your ideal day and life. Make lists of your favorite memories. Choose the life you want and decide what matters to you, whether that's career, hobbies, family, etc.
7) Supplements. I've had some luck with fish oil and supplements, but choose carefully. Some supplements can allergic reactions, or cause manic episodes if you're bipolar (St. John's Wart, here's looking at you). Serotonin boosting supplements (5-HTP, SJW, etc.) can be very bad if taken in excess-- serotonin syndrome. Same with lithium oratate (over the counter) having the possibility of lithium toxicity if taken in excess. Doctors who are skilled in FDA-approved prescription medicine/biology and medical/blood tests for lithium levels, etc. exist for a good reason. Doctors are also a third party to watch your progress if you have a bad reaction to something. Not all OTC supplements have long-term studies or FDA approvals. I suggest seeing a doctor.